Went to collect keys from S at 1:30… had to say goodbye to Maverick.

He’s on his way out and tomorrow he will be taken to the vet for the Big Sleep.

S is very sad. But he’s 12 and has had a long innings, a good innings. His kidneys have now totally given out. He’s not eating at all (not even his favourite tuna or chicken) and just drinks a lot. So she’s given him some milk (full cream – he deserves it) and he’s had that and he looks… accepting. The same strange, dreamy look on his face, like Chloe had. Like he’s not all here. I think he’s ready, like Chloe was. Breaks my heart.

really does.

sobbed all the way home. still crying. we’d just gotten to know each other, and he seemed so well the last time i sat for S. it’s such a difficult decision for her… she loves him so much. but he is ready. it’s time.

At least she’ll be in Bangkok when it happens. He goes tomorrow.

i don’t know if that makes it any easier. probably not. adds to the terrible ache in ones heart, really. like when mum had to take Chloe. i just couldn’t. but it was her time. and she was nearly 14.

farewell to you, Maverick.

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